Subject: [FFML] Re: [Utena][Fanfic] Sonata For Piano Duo
From: Alan Harnum
Date: 11/9/2000, 10:36 PM
To: "DB Sommer" <sommer@3rdm.net>
CC: <ffml@fanfic.com>

At 11:33 PM 11/4/00 -0500, DB Sommer wrote:

Wee. Only over a month late for this one. At least I have finally caught up.



Hmm. Better write more.



     That was the first thing you said to me; sharp and cold.  I

got used to it a long time ago, though; all your little

vengeances.  No, Kozue, I don't care that you won't play any

more; no, Kozue, I don't care who you go out with.  But every

little glance and word will have your gentle barb in it: you

disappoint me, Kozue.



And that is perhaps what really gets to her.



Classic passive-aggressive behaviour, it is.





     They looked as though it hurt them, the dying.



They should have taken hemlock. I heard it's relatively painless that way.



o/~ Suicide is painless / It brings on many changes...



     But, brother, what kind of marriage is held together solely

by trying to make money off your twin prodigies?



Why, the best reason in the world TO marry. For the money, of course. :)



"I have discovered that our combined DNA will inevitably produce twin

musical prodigies.  We must marry and reproduce in order to profit from this."



"I agree."



 Do you know how

much they charged for tickets to that concert we never gave?  I

do; I found out.  I _look into things_ Miki; I don't just go with

the flow and think that everything will work out for me if I'm

_nice_ to everyone.



So instead become a bitch so everything will go down the crapper like you

now know it will? Sounds almost like a self-fulfilling prophacy. :)



Natch.  :)



     You were the one crying.  "Why?" you asked.  You couldn't

understand.  You hated me, then, for what I did; I could see it

in your eyes.  I think that made me glad; hate is a strong

feeling, strong as love.  Anything you love, you must also hate a

little as well, for making you needy, for carving out a hollow

place in you that only it can fill.



I rather like the idea of Kozue thinking this way. It fits.



It certainly fits into how she treats her brother. 



     You looked at me as though I were from another world,

another universe.



You are. Believe me, you are. :)



Miki is from Mars, Kozue is from Venus?



     "Why?" you whispered, as I moved to stroke your cheek.

Your skin felt just like mine; it was like touching myself.

Being with you would be like being with myself; for once, I would

feel whole.  For once, there would be no chasm, gape, abyss, in

me.



Heh. And that makes sense too. Very nicely done.



In general terms, Miki and Kozue each possess what the other lacks.



     "I'm sorry I hit you.  I shouldn't have done that."



     "It's all right.  I deserved it."



Miki: I didn't say you didn't deserve it. All I meant was I should  have

kicked you in the gut instead.



"Oh, and there's Miki with a _vicious_ chairshot to his sister's head...

why isn't the ref _doing_ anything?"



     "How considerate of you."



     "The welfare of all of Ohtori's students is a constant

concern of mine.



Akio: After all, if they're in too bad a shape, I can't use them for my own

purposes.



Akio:  That's why I've instituted mandatory 5 a.m. calisthenics.



     I can't precisely recollect what happened next: I thrust the

long serrated blade of the boning knife at his heart, and he

didn't seem to move at all, and suddenly the knife was on the

floor with my blood on it, and my palm had been laid open by a

dry line of stinging fire.



My mistake. However I don't like this. Warping reality to protect him from a

direct attack doesn't fit with the rest of the series. He's good at pulling

the strings and making others dance like puppets, but he doesn't directly

change things to act for his benefit. Not sure if I'm being clear in what I

mean, other than this method of thwarting a direct attack doesn't feel

right.



He may not necessarily have warped reality.  Kozue, after all, is an

untrained fighter; Akio's a Fallen Prince.  He could simply be much, much

faster than she is.  Or he could have warped things somehow--messed with

her mind, or otherwise.  I don't put it past either his abilities or his

inclinations to do so.  I'm sorry it didn't work for you, but it's not

something I'm going to change.



This was written on the front steps of Sidney Smith Hall, in the

lobby of Victoria College, in the basement of Northrop Frye Hall,

in the second floor reading room of Robarts Library,



Right next to the Mikage Seminar guy's office. :)



U of T's Mikage Seminar, unfortunately, had to be cancelled due to budget

cutbacks.  :)



Nice work. Perfered the other pieces you've done of late, but it worked.

Kozue was one of the least interesting characters for me, so that might have

something to do with it.



Well, she always fascinated me, perhaps because I always found her so

inexplicable.  :)



Thanks for the commentary.



Ciao,

-Alan Harnum





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