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Chapter 6: Alpha to Omega.
I sat down looking at my Thursday's lunch. It was the same old
tuna-fish sandwich and the same old can of coke. Everything was as it
should be. The food, the people, and the screams echoing in my head.
Alice sat in front of me, unpacking her lunch. Her eyes were
directed to the table only, not even bothering to make eye contact with
me. After a while she said in a low tone. "So is it true?"
I waited a few seconds and nodded slowly. And then talked in my
usual, cold voice. "Of course."
Then there was another long pause, followed by, "Why?"
"Does it matter?"
"Doesn't it?"
"It makes no difference why I did it. I did it and that's all that
matters."
"But I want to hear why."
"Ask questions I can answer."
"Does that mean you don't know?"
"Why are you do nosey? Can't you accept the truth, and leave it be."
"I'm only human."
"As am I. so why ask?"
"What is that supposed to mean?"
"It means that things happen. Mankind is one abstraction. It is
impossible to define, impossible to predict. It does things just because
it can. And people need no mor reason then that to throw away everything
they cared about."
"Is that what you did?"
"I'm no philosopher."
"You sound like one."
"A person can be many things. I am a murderer and that's all you
need to know. Why don't you just leave me alone."
"Because I want to help."
"I don't need your pity, your sympathy. Save all your care and
consideration for someone else. I have no need for it."
"Why don't you just talk to me without being so cold? You're like a
robot, just moving from one day to another, with no purpose. No hope, no
dreams. Why won't you just move on?"
"Because I don't deserve to." And I got up and left, leaving Alice
sitting at the table...........
I sat down outside, inside the shade of a large tree. I was in a
field, alone, without anyone around.
The sun rested so high in the blue cloudless sky. And the wind blew,
moving the green grass all around me. It was pleasantly warm, a perfect
day by most peoples standards. But wasn't worthy. I did not deserve to
enjoy it. All I deserved was pain, and why wouldn't Alice understand
that? I had killed and I had to be punished, for all my life. Was it so
hard to understand? Why couldn't she restrain from sending out a helping
hand. Why not just understand? Why? Why? WHY?
Why did I care though. She was a bothersome, rather bubbly girl who
was a little to kind and would have a hard time in real life. She was
the kind of person who I had come to loath. The type that made me
remember what I was like before my family was killed at my hands. I
wished they would all just go away, and leave me be.
"The pain hurts more then any steel could. More then a sword
piercing your heart. I understand how you feel, and I wish I could sooth
you. But I can not, you need to be ready from here on end."
I looked to my left to see a red haired women sitting next to me, it
was the women who stopped me from committing suicide. Her hair flowed
beautifully in the wind, as did the white dress she wore. "Who are you?
And this time don't vanish on me."
She looked up at the sun and squinted only a little. "You may call
me Lilith, The Alpha. And you are Douglas, The Omega. I am the
beginning, and you are the end."
I looked onto the grass as it rippled in the wind. "I don't know
what you mean? This is another dream, isn't it?"
She shook her head. "Don't dismiss everything that happens to you
from now on. Don't call it a delusion, or a dream. Fantasy is reality
and you must accept that. You are at the center of everything now.
Everyone and everything depends on you. So do not waver."
"And what is your part in this?"
"I am the foundation of the end. You will be the finishing touches
on the house, the end. The last part to be inserted. The top of it all.
Everything has already been set in motion. You have seen the people who
see, who know what you are."
"What am I then?"
"I can not say, I cannot tell. I must sit and wait. Or else mankind,
and everything else it has brought will be destroyed. I have already
caused enough damage."
"You talk all in riddles. Tell me the truth."
"It is not for you to know. Good bye." And she vanished.
I was left alone, in the gentle breeze, I wished someone would
answer me, instead of hiding, instead of running. Everyone wanted me to
do something, yet they don't tell me anything about it. Lilith at least
gave me some answers, but they were all riddles. If only someone would
answer! I am left in the dark, why? Can't they leave me alone, or do
they. Is this all some delusion, some twisted work of my demented mind?
Was it all just fake and was reality so far away? Was I going to awake
in a bed and see the smiling faces of my parents? Or at least awake and
not bothered by vanishing people.
Lilith had said for me to not think of this as a dream or delusion.
She said fantasy is reality, and maybe she is right. This may not be a
delusion, but it may. If only I had a true answer. If only a person that
may be a delusion didn't tell me that this wasn't a hallucination. If a
person I know was real had told me if this was real or not. Then I would
know. All I had was the word of some who could or could not exist.
Was science going through the window? Was I supposed to believe that
people could teleport around? Was I to believe that dreams are true and
that some sort of magic exists? Was I going
insane?.........................
I sat down n my house, looking at the coffee. I needed some
relaxation, any relaxation. It was eight P.M and the screams were louder
then ever. Yet they screamed questions, questions I wanted answers to. I
wanted to know what was going on. Who was Lilith, did she exist. And
what of the A.C.M? did they exist? And if so, what were they?
A sound came from the front door, the sound of a doorbell being
rung. Who could be coming to my house at this time? Whoever it was is
going to get my personal curse.
I walked out of the kitchen and down the dark hallway towards the
front entrance. When I reached the door I opened it to reveal Alice
standing in front of the door. She was shivering badly even though she
wore a fairly heavy black coat.
I raised one eyebrow at her and sighed. "What are you doing here?"
"I wanted to talk to you."
"Why?"
"We never finished the conversation at lunch today."
"I think we did."
"Not to my satisfaction."
"I don't care how satisfied you were. To me it is over, and the
matter closed. So why don't you go home now and leave me alone."
I tried to shut the door on her but she quickly blocked it with her
door by jamming it in- between the wall and the door. "I want to talk,
okay?"
"No."
"You bastard! Why won't you just talk to me?"
"Because I don't want to. I just want to be left alone."
"Do you think sealing yourself off from people will make everything
all better?"
"I don't need o want it, �all better'. I just want to be left
alone."
"So you can sink into self pity?"
"Whatever reason I do it for, it's my business only, and none of
yours."
"Maybe. But I just want to hear the whole story from you."
"No, you don't."
"Why not."
"Because, everything people say is true, or at least most of it. I
killed my whole family in cold blood and enjoyed every minute of it."
There was a long silence before Alice said, "I don't believe it."
"Why not? It's true. I'm a madman, a murderer. So I suggest you go
away."
"But, I want to help you."
"Then going away will be the best help you could give."
She said nothing after that. She only left quietly, with a cold look
in her eyes. And I shut the door behind her.
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