Remember the YYH fanfic teaser that I posted up about two weeks ago? I had
written out the full story and I'm now sending part 1 to the ML. I would
really appreciate comments sent to me as this will be my last YYH fanfic in
until the end of this year... My trials are coming up soon and I won't have
time to write fanfics anymore. Please comment. =)
P/S 1 I shall be posting up the second part this Sunday.
P/S 2 For FFML members, please send your C&Cs directly to me as I'm nopt
subscribed to this ML anymore.
Siew Lee
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Entwined Destinies
A Yu Yu Hakusho fanfic by Siew Lee
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*Destinies, the stream of life,
Destinies, the hope of dreams...*
Two figures sat side by side under a huge tree in the middle of the
deserted park. It was nearly midnight now, as twelve stokes of the garden
clock tower signaled it. The night was heralded by constant chirping
crickets and a lonely hoot of an owl. It was so silent, so unfathomidable
in the depths of the darkness. At first look, it was maybe just some
lovers having a secret meeting right here, but at the second glance, it
was not quite what it seemed.
Sometimes, things shouldn't be perceived lightly.
A soft and gentle voice pierced the air, shattering the tranquil silence
that hung over both of them for a long time. The moonlight wasn't clear
and high that night, but two shapes could roughly be seen.
"Hiei, we can't go on living like this forever," began the gentle voice.
"Why? Isn't it good this way?" answered another voice, this one deeper
than the first voice.
"Because... I found it difficult to withstand the pain that I have to
endure... The pressure from my family, community, friends... Sometimes, I
was a little scared that our secrets might get disclosed," explained the
first voice.
"Why? You could just turn a blind eye and a deaf ear on them... If we live
just like this, won't it be a lot better?" growled the deeper voice.
"No... Hiei, you don't understand..."
"Yes, I understand everything you want to say, you are just plain
selfish," another voice said hardly, slightly indicating that there was a
slight tone of resentment.
"No... That was not what I meant!" exclaimed the gentle voice loudly,
loud enough to scare away the birds which were resting up in the tree.
In the dark skyline, dark shapes of frightened birds flew away in flocks.
"Yes, Kurama. I always knew that you wanted me for something. I want you
to come with me to Makai, yet you said that you can't leave your human
mother alone. What do you want then? My body?" snarled the much deeper
voice.
"No, you know I won't be that! Hiei, you are just being ignorant and
belligerent tonight!"
"That depends..." answered the deeper voice. Suddenly, a dark figure got up
from its place under the tree and flitted off quickly, leaving the another
person below the tree in the dead of the night... That night carried a
very heavy scent of despair and reject. The very scent of a tragedy.
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*Love, the blood of feelings,
Tragedies, the death of love*
Hiei sat down down on a branch of a tree. It was nearly three in the
morning already. Almost three hours he had left Kurama in the silent and
lonely park, now he felt a twinge of regret what he had done. Besides,
Kurama just wanted to be with his family...
Family? Hiei had never once have a family to go back to. He was an
outcast, a pariah, a forbidden child. That shame of being a bastard had
left an unhealable scar in his very soul, so deep that nothing could ever
restore it into its original way. He was the cruel and cold-blooded killer
in Makai, fear and terror were written in everybody's face whenever they
were to hear his name. Hiei bit back the bitter taste in his mouth, or was
it simply the unbearable pain in his heart? Hiei won't know for sure.
He had always thought that Kurama was the one who truly discerned him
inside, but he was wrong... He had once asked Kurama to take him to Makai,
forever living together as a couple, without any barriers to stop them;
but Kurama didn't want to accept his offer. What should he do? Nothing.
Hiei just had to hold back the choke that he was constraining painfully.
Slowly, he buried his face in his hands, he had never expected Kurama to
be that selfish. Kurama had actually put his mother ahead of him. Who was
Shiori compared to him? Shiori was only Kurama's human mother and Hiei was
Kurama's lover! Hiei blinked away hot tears that came to his eyes... The
acute feeling in his chest was so bad that he had to close his eyes and
hold his breath to calm down...
Loving someone was so difficult for him. It was simply too much when he
had to admit his love for Kurama in the first place, but he admitted it
anyway. A wry smile lit up at the corner of Hiei's mouth as he recalled
the time when Kurama had tricked him into saying his feelings out... That
was truly a priceless moment; but it was all gone now... Leaving only
ashes of saturnine, of anger.
What must he do for the meantime? The feeling of being rejected and
abandoned was terrible, as if something had slashed him across the chest,
leaving him powerless to defend himself. Hiei sighed unhappily, maybe he
was unworthy of Kurama paying so much attention to him... After all, he
was just only a poor and pitiful koorime child... Tears began to form at
the corner of his eyelids, but Hiei squeezed them away.
*I, Hiei, the Forbidden Child of Makai, shall never shed another tear for
Kurama, that heartless youko...*
Hiei felt even angrier as he thought of that. In a sweeping motion, he
flew, in search of a place to rest, to calm down. Or at least to hide
from the reality...
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*A friend lost shall never be returned,
Lost love shall never be reunited...*
Kurama stared at the fleeing shadow for a long time, until Hiei
disappeared from his sight. Hiei was so stubborn and defiant at time.
Kurama gritted his teeth and his fist tighten, he can't never ever
believed that Hiei had actually flew off like that... Sometimes, Hiei
wasn't at all reasonable.
Kurama sighed depressingly and sat down on the grass. The night was so
silent and moody, almost reflecting what he was experiencing right now.
Hiei still cannot comprehend why he couldn't leave his family, his
friends back here in Ningenkai. Kurama had a very docile nature during
normal times. Perhaps being a human now had neutralized his actual youko
behaviour.
Kurama almost laughed out aloud when he remembered all those glorious
days he felt when he was in Makai, living as a pure youko. Youkos...
He was a thief back then, slaughtering and decapitating enemies as he
robbed and killed. Inari-sama... He had not seen her for a very long
time...
*Hiei... Why can't you understand what predicament I am in now? I have a
life in Ningenkai as Shuichi Minamino, but I still can't let you go. I
love you too fierily, too deeply just to see you go just like that; but
I can't leave my life hanging here just like that. No... I can't be that
selfish... Hiei, you must understand,* whispered Kurama into the night.
Kurama's thinking was confused now. He had to make a choice, either Hiei
or Ningenkai... No... If he went with Hiei, what will his dearest mother
do? Live alone in this world? No... She still had her husband and stepson.
If he let go of Hiei now, he might never see him again. Kurama collapsed
on the soft grass, fervently hopingly that somehow, Inari-sama will help
him out.
The moonlight was so placid... but hordes of doubts and unanswered
questions lingered in the cool night air, heralding the fall of a being,
the fall of his hopes and dreams.
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*Sacrifice for one is priceless,
Remembrance of love is forever...*
It was already in the afternoon, but Hiei was still now where to be seen.
Kurama paced up and down across the his room, occasionally looking out of
the window for any signs of a black shadow. No... was the answer again.
Maybe Hiei really meant what he said. Kurama sighed again, and took out
his windbreaker from the wall closet. Perhaps a walk outside these four
walls might do him some good... Besides, it Hiei didn't want to come back,
waiting forever for him here won't do any good.
It was a fine day, alright, but as Kurama walked along, he simply didn't
had the heart to look around and enjoy the beautiful scenery set before
him. Hiei was missing, but Kurama couldn't take any initiative to look for
him. Sometimes, let destiny take its own course...
Kurama strolled along the sidewalk of the busy streets. He didn't have any
idea where he was heading nor where he wanted to go. Maybe loitering?
Kurama despised loafing around during his free time, but this time was an
exception. He then sat down on a bench outside a row of shophouses.
Kurama looked straight up at the sky, thinking of problems that arrived in
waves, yet he was powerless to stop them. Hiei was the only one he had
ever truly loved in his life, whether as Youko Kurama or as Shuichi
Minamino. Hiei... was so attractive to him, his small body frame was
delicate, enough for Kurama to hug him whenever he wanted. Kurama smiled
dreamily and closed his eyes. Perhaps Hiei was only trying to test his
reaction...
The street was sparsely dotted with passerbys, hardly taking notice of
anybody else around. A few boys were playing street football by the
sidewalk, screaming and yelling their lungs out. There was hardly any
commotion around, as Kurama carried on his daydreaming.
But things couldn't be judged by its cover. Kurama dreamt on,
reminiscing those wonderful and happy times he and Hiei had... Hiei's
behaviour, Hiei's reaction to a cheese cake, Hiei's first bath... It was
just so perfect and heavenly. *Why? Why do you have to destroy all this?
Isn't it better this way?* asked Kurama aloud mentally.
Hiei was gone now. Maybe Kurama would never get to see him again, after
all those hard words they exchanged yesterday night. Or else... there
might be another way... Kurama shuddered suddenly as he thought of that...
Since Hiei wanted him so badly, why not he do something that he would be
proud of? But no... Kurama hadn't forgetten why he declined Hiei's
request. He still had a life in Ningenkai...
Slowly, after what had almost seemed to be an eternity, Kurama got up from
the bench. Absent-mindedly, he crossed the road, too indulging with
thoughts and memories... He didn't notice a few voices shouting behind
him... Then, there was a loud crash... Something big and fast slammed into
his body, sending Kurama flying to some 20 meters away.
It was a long time... Kurama didn't quite feel anything... It was just a
sudden pain and everything was lifeless... Everything went dark...
Everything was gone...
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*Ashes of hope buried in the sea of rejection,
Colors of love fading away in the shadow of Death...*
Hiei stood alone in the the huge chamber of Mukuro's palace in Makai. Yes,
he had went back to Makai, because maybe Makai was his actual home, but
never Ningenkai. Mukuro's palace was always chilly and Hiei never liked
to sit down on the ground. At least standing was better than to sit on
the chilly marble floor.
Ningenkai, a place of dashed hopes and dreams. Even Kurama had those
strong Ningen feeling binding him to his human life. Kurama was a sliver
youko, how could he do that? Hiei wasn't sure. No, Hiei was never sure of
anything.
Although Hiei's body was there in Mukuro's palace but his mind was
somewhere off, to a place where no flesh and blood could ever reach. Hiei
never liked to admit anything, but perhaps this time it may serve as a
guide to unravel his own doubts and mysteries. He dug deeper into his
memories...
A male koorime child... The Koorime tribe had thrown him into a freezing
river to be left to die... Hiei shall always hate the koorimes... They had
made him endure suffering and torments eversince childhood. What had he
done to harm them that time? Nothing, he was just a baby! What he could
done as a bady? Yet, the koorimes had the conscience to dump him, whether
he survives or not. As a child, he had to fend for himself, making an
invincible barrier around him, whether physically or emotionally. That was
why he grew up to a vicious and cold-blooded killer.
Killing and slaughtering, he was brought up by his own self. What to do?
Nobody would be there to welcome him home, nothing to comfort his
anguished soul... Life was really tough for him back then.
The Reikai Investigators... A half-smile lit up at both corners of Hiei's
mouth. Yusuke Urameshi was really a perfect partner, always helping him
out. That Kazuma Kuwabara wasn't bad either, just except that he was a
bit too sarcastic at times... Nah, he won't be tricked easily in the
scissors, stone and cloth game. Hiei won't have any hard feelings towards
him, although he did really felt like strangling him at times. Botan and
Koenma? Well, yeah, Koenma did get on his nerves every now and then, but
that blue-head girl was really irritating. Hiei snickered as he toyed with
the idea of his Korkuyuuha tearing her into pieces.
Yukina... She was his sister, but she won't know that he was her brother.
Perhaps it was better that way, enough room for him to do his own things
in peace and without worry. Hiei trusted Kuwabara in a way, but he would
never ever say that in front of him. Not even to Kurama.
Hiei's heart ached when he thought of his friend in Ningenkai. Yeah,
Kurama was the perfect friend for him, although they had just broken up
yesterday. Why? Why was Kurama still attached to Ningenkai? Now, he had
regained him youko form, he should come back to Makai at once. Besides,
what was the use of staying in Ningenkai for so long? Because of his
mother? Because of his friends in school? Or was it just simply that he
didn't want Hiei around?
Hiei pushed that awful thought away. In fact, he ought to feel at home
right now! He was Hiei, the Forbidden Child of Makai, Mukuro's elite
warrior... That was something that wasn't easy to achive. That didn't do
any good, life was just so bleak without someone to lend a listening ear
to him.
Unexpectedly, someone spoke aloud in the silent chamber.
"Hiei?" asked the voice, ot more accurately, someone.
"Mukuro, why are you here?" growled Hiei, snapping back into reality from
the Lands of Dreams.
"Simply because I want to send you on a special training course," answered
Mukuro.
"Special training? What special training?" asked Hiei curiously.
"It is a training to ensure that you can make full use of your youki,"
replied Mukuro. "Do you want to go?"
Hiei was quiet, his thinking confused. Just as he was about to say 'yes',
he shut his mouth again. *No, I can't give up such a good chance because
of Kurama. Besides, he didn't care about me anymore...* Hiei bit back the
bitter feeling in him.
"Yes," answered Hiei, his heart angry at Kurama. Perhaps both of them
needed more time apart.
"Alright, then that it shall be," said Mukuro as she walked away, leaving
Hiei alone...
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