River of Dreams
a Neon Genesis Evangelion fanfic
by Damien Roc

Neon Genesis Evangelion and all character portrayed therein are copyright
GAINAX. North American release rights belong to ADV Films. This fanfiction is
not intended for profit. If anyone feels the need to pay for it, pay GAINAX
and ADV, not me or anyone else.

Warning, this fanfiction contains scenes of a sexual nature and may be
disturbing to some readers.

"Anta baka!"
"Hai, Ikari-kun."
"Shinji-kun, daijoubu?"

"I had to beat you up, new kid."
"You pilot an Eva? That's so cool!"
"Shinji... I love you."

***

That's the last time I kiss you to pass the time. And Asuka slaps me. She goes
into her room. I wait, then follow her. She's lying on her futon, mouth wide,
breathing evenly. Her arms are spread out. She has on a loose shirt that's not
buttoned up. Her breast is showing. It is a small creamy mound with a pink
point. She opens an eye. What are you looking at, Shinji? I'm not looking at
anything! She cocks her head to the side and sits up. Her shirt falls off her
shoulders. It is far too big for her. It looks like one of Kaji's. She yawns.
I'm not tired. She gets up and walks out to the kitchen. Shinji, we're out of
milk. Misato doesn't usually get milk, just beer. I turn around. Misato is in
the main room, holding groceries. Shinji, help me put these away. I walk into
the kitchen. Pull out the eggs and vegetables. Put them in the refrigerator.
Don't put the fruit in there. I'm not, just the vegetables. Misato puts the
bread away. Here, Shinji, have a banana. I peel and eat the peach. Throw the
peel away. The phone rings. Pick it up. Is Misato there? Yes, just a moment. I
turn around. Asuka stands there, stamping a foot. Shinji, you didn't tell me
about the homework assignment. I didn't know about any homework assignment.
Why are you holding the phone, it's beeping. Ern-ern-ern-ern. I hang up.
Where's Misato? She's probably at NERV, working. Asuka flops down in front of
the TV and turns it on. Why is it that there's only news on. I don't know.Ah!
It's so hot. She peels off her shirt, leaving only a thin tank-top. Sweat
makes it stick to her skin. Shinji, get me some water. Walk into the kitchen
and pour a glass of water. Walk back to the main room. Ayanami is standing
inside the door. Ikari, we have to go to NERV. She leaves. I follow her out
the door. Shinji, where are you going at night with a glass of water? I turn
around. Misato is in a night-shirt, yawning. She stretches, and her panties
show. What are you doing? Look out at the night sky. It is clear, and the
stars twinkle slightly. Shinji, go get Rei. Yes, Miss Misato. Walk downstairs
and to Ayanami's apartment. Kensuke stops me. Where are you going Shinji? I've
got some pics off of the internet of the US' new superiority fighter. I look
at the papers in his hands. One picture shows the cockpit of the fighter. It
looks like the inside of an EVA entry plug. Shinji, we're going to test you're
response to multiple hostile targets. Yes, Miss Akagi. On the count of three:
one, two, three! The EVA leaps forward, pulling out the vibro-knife. The first
target pops up. I strike out. Touji falls to the ground with a grunt. That's a
pretty good punch, new kid. He gets up, wiping blood off of his face. He slaps
an arm around my shoulder and spins me around. Pushes me through a door. What
are you doing here, Ikari? Umm... Miss Misato wanted me to give you you're new
I.D. card, Ayanami. Thank you. Ayanami is not wearing anything besides a
towel. It is around her shoulders, and covers her breasts. Her skin is so
light, it is almost white. Ayanami? Yes. Did you just get out of the shower?
Yes. She begins to put on her school clothes. Why can't they have separate
locker rooms? I finish tying my second shoe and stand up. Don't turn around,
I'm not ready yet! I slump my shoulders. Miss Misato gently places her hands
on them. Shinji, it wasn't your fault. You couldn't have done anything to help
Touji. But why? Why did you do that to him, Father? I don't have to answer
that. I squeeze my eyes shut, trying to stop the tears. Hands grab my hair and
jerk me up. Shinji! We're going to be late for school. I get up and rush to
the bathroom. It's locked. Pen-pen comes out dragging a towel. I clean up and
put on my clothes. Misato is in the kitchen with a beer and a toothbrush in
her mouth. Morning, Shinji, why are you up so early on a Saturday? Touji and
Kensuke want to show me something.I see naked fear in their faces as they lie
there between the fingers of the EVA. The angel attacks. It strikes Ayanami's
EVA and punctures through the side. She cries out in pain. Ikari! You should
apologize for hurting her! I open my mouth to say something. I didn't know it
would hurt the first time, Shinji. Why did you do that to me? Asuka slaps me.
I feel tears in my eyes. I'm sorry, Shinji, but don't blame yourself for what
happened to Touji. You couldn't have saved him. Misato hugs me tightly. I
inhale to say something, and get the smell of her hair. Ayanami, your hair
smells sweet. Have you ever done it before, Ikari? She begins to gyrate on top
of me, sliding up and down. She stops moving suddenly and lays down beside me.
She gives me a tight embrace. Shinji, I'll always be with you, no matter what.
Mother what are you doing here? She gives me a sad smile and pulls my head to
her breast. I love you, Shinji. But what about the EVAs? Miss Akagi rolls away
from me and sits up. Her hips sway slightly as she walks to the door. I get up
and follow her. What is that thing, Shinji? I look down where Asuka is
pointing. I have an erection. I can't get my plug suit on. Here, let me help
you. She kneels down in front of me and holds me close. Please don't cry, Miss
Misato. She sniffs and stands up. She reaches up and wipes her face. A milky-
white substance drips from Ayanami's fingers. Ikari, we must clean up now. She
walks into the shower. I follow her. I soap up my body. The water in her
shower stops. Hands massage my back. Kaoru presses against my backside.
Shinji...

***

Kaoru's eyes open, lids fluttering to get used to the light. He stands up and
walks over to Shinji. He reaches around and into Shinji's shirt, tracing
fingers over a slim chest. He brings his head close to Shinji's ear and
breathes on it for a few moments.

"Shinji... I love you."

***

Author's notes: C&C, MST's, etc. welcome.

Damien Roc