At 12:06 AM 4/23/98 -0400, Monica/Akira-chan wrote:

At 06:22 PM 4/22/98 -0500, you wrote:

This one was written in a total of an hour, on one of those
spur-of-the-moment ideas.  Lemme know what you think.


Leifker Presents...

Absolution

A work of Rurouni Kenshin fanfiction by Nicholas Leifker

Yay! More Rurouken fics ^_^ 
Geez... you'd think there'd be more out there. 

Problem is, at the moment it's only fansubbed.  Extensively fansubbed,
true, but still fansubbed.  Thus its exposure is still limited.

There are similar problems with other fansubbed series.  For instance, I've
developed a serious love for LoGH, and have an idea for a story.  Problem
is, in this case I'd need to see certain episodes in order to get it right,
specifically eps. 95-110 (the end of the series).  

BTW, anyone who can point me to copies of those LoGH episodes (unsubbed is
fine) would have my eternal gratitude.  

Hmm... haven't written one

in a while, have I? Oh well... ideas percolate, but never seem to get
written down =P

Heeheehee... Been there, done that, got the t-shirt.

    As time and bodies passed, the horror faded.  Killing became as
natural as breathing.  If the Meiji asked me to destroy, they were

Hmm. The Meiji? I'm not sure what he would say, but probably not that. The
Meiji era is named so because Meiji was the Emperor at the time that the
Ishin Shishi were supporting (I believe...). Maybe the 'new era'?
Also, I don't think killing ever became really natural for him. There's a
lot about how everything tasted of blood, even sake, which, his master
(cool guy -- Seijuro Hiko?) had told him was a BAD SIGN ^_^

Eep.  Seriously, I didn't know what else to put there.  Ishin Shishi,
perhaps?  

As for the killing, considering how many people he had killed (along with
Jin-e's comments early on), I think he had at least gotten to a point where
it didn't faze him.  To get there would mean that something important
inside of him would have to die.  

destroyed.  I never wavered from my duty.  I killed anyone in my way,
regardless of age or gender.  If a child happened to walk in the room at
the time, it would mean that child's death.  There could be no witnesses,
no regrets... no soul.  I even welcomed the numb feeling that developed
inside of me; it allowed me to do my duty.  

Hmm. I don't think that's quite right. There was an extensive flashback
section in the latest (latest? I guess not... um, in the last few
months...) volumes of Jump that had a lot of the hitokiri -- He was hidden
until the confrontations in Kyoto, and even then, fought mostly the
soldiers. I'm not sure if he'd be quite so blase about a child's death,
since he was fighting for the common people of the era. 

Hmmm.  Probably right.  

    Things happened, people died.  I don't like to think about the end,
when those who I still held some feeling for died.  I went over the edge
then... but somehow turned back.  I spent the next years trying to wash the
blood from my hands - blood that would come back to me every night once I
closed my eyes.  

Hmm. I dunno of anyone close to him who died (of course, we don't have the
whole story) as a result of his being "hitokiri". The one person I do know
(no spoilers, i'll be good) who died that he felt EXTREME guilt for died
because of her, not his actions, and he was trying to save her to boot. 

I've found that out several times over since yesterday.  ^_^

I like the fic tho -- it catches the feel of their relationship, which
seems to actually be moving along (in centimeters and millimeters, but
still...) Now, if Enishi would just move his butt along and actually attack
kenshin -- I really dislike the rubber boy =P

Thanks.  

Monica

-- Nick