Subject: [FFML][Eva][_very_dark] Home pt7
From: gholmes@rodeo.sd27.bc.ca (Cory Holmes)
Date: 2/23/1998, 1:05 AM
To: fanfic@fanfic.com

All characters copyrighted by Gainax, not me.
SPOILERS AHEAD!
In this fic, Yui Ikari is NOT part of Unit 1.  If you have a problem with
this, don't read.
NOTE: If you don't like gore, violence, etc., skip down a few pages.

Home


        Shinji was in the cloud of blackness again.  He was standing on a
vast expanse of blackness.  It was solid, but black.  Only the cloud
separated 'ground' from 'air'.  No pain this time, but cold.  So cold.  He
looked forward and saw his father.
        "Father, what's this?"  His father didn't respond.  He asked again,
and got no response.  His father looked over Shinji's shoulder and smiled.
Shinji's head snapped over his shoulder.  It was Misato.  "Misato!  What's
going on?" Like his father, she pain him no attention.  He also saw Rei,
Asuka, and Toji.  They just walked around on the ground, walking around
like they were in her apartment, or anywhere normal  Just going about their
business.  "Rei?  Can you hear me?  Asuka?  Toji?"
        "They can't hear you," his father said.  "They don't know you're here."
        "What's going on?" Shinji asked, but his father had fallen silent again.
        "Just watch," his father said, monotone, like Rei.  Shinji's gaze
fell on the people.  They walked around for a few minutes when another
figure walked up behind Misato.  He emerged from the blackness and his face
was reveled to be Shinji's.  It was another him.  The doppleganger reached
out to Misato, his arms wide like he was trying to hug her.  She turned and
smiled, but the smile fell when he grabbed her neck and twisted.  Hard.
There was a loud _crack_ and Misato screamed in pain.
        "NO!!" Shinji yelled and ran forward to stop himself, but his hands
passed harmlessly through both.  But 'Shinji' didn't stop with breaking her
neck.  He took her by the neck and slammed his fist into her pretty face.
Blood spewed from her nose, and he hit her again.  Her lip split and she
howled in pain.  But death came, and she fell to the ground, twitching.
"MISATO!"  But the people paid him no attention.  Shinji tried to shut his
eyes at the horror before him, but his father told him to keep them open,
and his eyes obeyed, he couldn't shut them!  Tears started to sting his
eyes, but he couldn't blink them away.  His father had complete control
over Shinji's body.
        They looked at the figure, and screamed.  'Shinji' started toward
Rei, and she tried to run, but he caught her by her short hair.  Holding it
tight, he cut off a part of it with a knife that appeared in his hand.
Part of her scalp came with the lock.  Blood poured out of her head wound.
'Shinji' spun her around and slashed her across her throat, and her head
fell limply back.  He continued to slice until he'd completely cut through
her spine.  The only thing keeping her head attached was the flap of skin
at the back of her neck.  'Shinji' cut across her stomach, across her legs,
across her arms, and finally let her lifeless corpse drop to the ground,
blood flowing everywhere.
        'Shinji' spun around and threw his knife.  It hit Toji in the face,
more specifically, it hit him in his right eye.  There was a sick crunching
sound as the blade cut through bone, muscle, cartilige, and finally brain.
Toji dropped without a sound.  'Shinji' walked over to Toji, ripped the
knife out, and kicked him in the head a few times.  Then he looked over his
shoulder, noticed Shinji, and smiled.  He took his blade and moved it from
Toji's head to his right arm.  He rased the bloody weapon high, and slashed
down.  The sharp edge cut until hit bone, where it could cut no more.  So
'Shinji' raised the blade high again, and came down, harder this time to
cut the bone.  When the knife dug into the ground, he stopped to pull on
the limb, and it came away with ease.  The raised the severed arm high
above his head and laughed with sheer delight.  He tossed the limb at
Shinji, and it passed through him, harmlessly.  Again, Shinji tried to
close his eyes, but they would do nothing.
        'Shinji' threw the blade up in the air, and it landed in Toji's
right leg.  'Shinji' smiled gleefully and stepped on the blade.  It sunk
into the flesh up to the handle, then he grabbed it, and pulled it down to
where it touched the ground.  He reversed it's direction, and did the same
to the other side.  He pulled on the leg, and it didn't come off, but some
tendons snapped.  He pulled again, harder this time.  Same result.  He
yanked hard, and the limb popped off.  He threw this one at Shinji, too.
He turned to Asuka.  She started to run, but an AT Field snapped in front
of her, stopping her.  'Shinji' slowly advanced on her, but she ran along
the length of the Field, but another came into existance, boxing her into a
corner.  She started to scream for someone to save her, but 'Shinji' only
smiled.  He looked over at Shinji, and opened his mouth for the first time.
        "How should I kill her?" he asked in Shinji's voice.  He held the
blood-soaked, bone-chipped, brain-marred blade in one hand.  The other
curled into a fist.  "Should it be fast?" he asked, bringing the knife up
slightly.  "Or should it be slow and painful?" he asked, bringing his fist
higher than the knife, the two being like a set of scales.  He weighed each
one until he came to an answer.  "As you won't tell me, I'll answer it
myself.  Both!" he yelled, and attacked her with bothThe knife easily
entered Asuka's temple, while his hand lanced out over and over again,
turning her beautiful features bloody and broken.  Then he reached out and
grabbed her head.  He pressed his lips to her bloody ones before he snapped
her neck with a sharp twist.  Her head turned 180 degrees around her
shoulders and stayed there.
        'Shinji' glanced at Shinji and laughed.  It was a deep, resonant
laugh, like someone just told the worlds funniest joke.  "What?  You don't
approve of my handiwork?" he asked, just as if he was asking if Shinji
liked rice.  Shinji ran forward and tried to punch himself, but his hands
passed through without touching; just like before.  'Shinji' continued to
laugh, and he faded from view, but the horrible sound hung like a bad
odour.  As soon as he left, Shinji collapsed on the ground, finally being
able to cry.  He sobbed and sobbed.  But then his father walked up behind
him.
        "Stop crying," and like magic, Shinji stopped.  Not voluntarilly,
of course.  Shinji turned to face him, but he was much closer than Shinji
expected so he took a few steps back.  After the first step, his foot hit
something.  He looked down to see Misato's twisted and bloody face staring
up at him, lifeless.  He screamed, and ran forward, only to trip over Rei's
sliced and diced body.  He fell face first into Toji's mutilated body.  He
scrambled to his feet, totally covered in blood.  He couldn't figure out
why he could feel the blood now.
        "Wondering why you can feel things now?" his father asked from
behind him.  Shinji turned around, but saw nothing.  "It's because I let
you feel it, tool!" he shouted.  Shinji turned and saw his father's face,
magnified hundreds of times.  His father's voice came from behind him, not
from the face.
        "Don't you feel warm inside knowing that you killed your friends?"
Shinji turned to see another image of his father's face.  A third joined
them.
        "Answer me!" but Shinji couldn't.  His mouth refused to work.  The
third head was extremely irritated.  "Then look behind you!" and Shinji
looked.  It was Asuka's body, hoverhing in front of him.  Her voice came
from somewhere, but he couldn't place it.
        "You coward, you let me get killed!  You killed me!  You watched as
I suffered, and you enjoyed it!  Admit it!"
        "No..." Shinji whispered, getting his voice back, and shaking his
head.  Rei came up beside Asuka, head flopping all over the place.
        "You cut off my head.  _You_ hurt me.  Not some rogue Eva.  Not
some Angel.  You did it," she said, monotone, but with an edge of steel.
Toji appeared beside Rei and Asuka, missing his arm and leg.
        "You cut off my arm and leg, _again_!  Are you happy now?  I don't
know why I was ever your friend!"  The other two nodded their agreement.
Shinji sensed a presence behind him, and he whirled around.  Misato stood
there, once pretty face now completely smeared with blood, her head hanging
at a strange angle.
        "If this is how you were going to repay me, I would've never let
you live in my home for a year.  Did you enjoy killing me?  Did you like
the pain it caused?  Well?!"
        "NOOOO!!" he yelled, and he turned to one of the huge images of his
father's face.  "Please, stop it!"
        "I'm not doing it, you are.  You killed them like a good little
tool, and now you're paying for the consequnces," the image said.
        "Please stop, please stop, please stop, please stop," Shinji
repeated, growing quieter with each repition.  The four dead figures
answered in synch with each other for his father.
        "No.  You have to suffer for your crimes against us," they said,
and then dropped to the ground.
        'I killed them!  I killed them!  I killed them!' ran in Shinji's
mind, and his knees gave out.  He collapsed on the ground, his clothes now
splattered with blood, and the three faces of his father laughing madly.
        Shinji sat up straight in the hospital bed screaming.
        His screams lasted for ten minutes.

end part 7
thanx to all those who gave c&c.
gholmes@rodeo.sd27.bc.ca